Friday, June 17, 2005


Ed (Name changed for privacy protection) needed to check whether he could feel his Kundalini and he felt a distinct feeling. He describes it as feeling "static" electricity between his scalp and the palm of the hand.

Friday, June 10, 2005

I love Miyazaki. Why? Becuase herions dont need to become agressively macho (Kim Possible) to convey strength, spirit and dignity. This NY Times review puts it nicely... What are they talking about? Just compare our Kim with any Miyazaki herion:

Both pack action and adventure. Both fight evil. But the difference lies in connection with the self, enlightened approach and selflessness. Beautiful creations of Miyazaki!

Sunday, May 22, 2005

Wait Wait, Dont Go Away

People come. People get realization. People vanish into the thick of the external world. Sometimes we ask why?

Some of us see ourselves. We get our realization but for an extended period of time are not enjoying vibrations. For years sometimes. Like some unfinished business before they can journey inwards and enjoy the ocean of all pervading bliss.

Some seekers, like Emiko, feel the depth and joy right off the bat. Day 1. No need for 5 week courses. These are mostly female.

This quote explained it all!

"1984-01-19 (ego- superego)

"Some people start feeling the awareness of that unbounding love as soon as they get their realisation. But in some people they have more of an ego trip left to be finished, so they come to me. I find they are flying in the air like bubbles and as if blown by the nourishing Mother, blown out like the bubbles on the surface of the sea. And there are many who are suffering from superego, they get mixed up with the sand and become very heavy and all the time weeping and crying about personal things. But, once the thing clicks, they become one with the Spirit of the ocean. Then they feel that deep, joyous force of the sea which nourishes them, guides them and elevates them every moment. Like deep down in the sea they go and there they find the beautiful pearls of eternal experiences, and when they find these pearls they bring to me as poems, as dances, as smiles, as laughter, as enjoyment. These are all within you, and they lie there away from your consciousness."

- Her Holiness Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi

Monday, May 16, 2005

Class Systems

I have been quizzed about India's Cast system, which is a purely political fabrication in currrent times. But that dread exists in the states too: Just look at this NYTimes article that follows experiences of people from various self-defined classes of society, after they have a heart attack. Go here

Tuesday, May 3, 2005

The Twilight Zone

I am living in the twilight zone... now more towards the sunnier side, but dragging my slower foot which is moving out from the dark zone ever so slowly. Sometimes, it scares me as I feel that the receding dark age will suck me away with it and I will never see the complete golden day of the new age.

Living in the twilight zone is not easy. Since the darkness and the light are facing off one final time before sunrise of the new golden age, the weather inside imitates the changes outside. Like Shri Mataji described, she saw two worlds... one going down and one rising up for the new age of truth.

The trap of the glamor:
The unfortunate failure of half-baked souls can be attributed to tendencies posessed by them, over many births maybe. This failure through use of falsehood is prevalent in all walks of life. Corporate shareholders of Enron to conceited followers of spiritual movements, who were attracted by shortcuts and not the true merits of whatever they embraced.

The newly elected Dean of the School of Public Health (UM, Ann Arbor), said in his address while a candidate for the position, how he would approach progress. He mentioned the value of truth. He mentioned the value of resisting the temptation of bending it to suit one's needs or proove one's point. Especially, during these changing times, when the stars are on the upswing and the meritious and deserving are being blessed with profits they deserve, the weak and greedy are easy to fall into illusions which promise them shortcuts to the same successes.

The attitude in spiritual movements, sometimes is pretty darned same and hurts seekers of truth. Promise of miraculous recoveries, and instant gratification of materialistic desires and other fantastic magic as as prevalent as experiences of true transformation of the heart. Gandhi said, of God is what He is, He should not only provide for, but also transform the heart of the devotee by ruling it. God's true miracles are the gradual transformations in the hearts of people and not a windfall of wealth overnight. The transformation of the heart will spread to the entire body bringing internal relief to maladies and restore sanity in the blackholed brain of the seeker of truth.

Shri Mataji has warned against people who claim that after their self-realization, they suddenly had an influx of money or some other material benefit. She gravely put down those claims, reminding us that God does not know money as humans do. That is not an act of God. My guess is, that is the sinister act of the dark-side to build undue expectations from God. A very intricately laid down final act of entrapment.

Bending the Truth:
Is impossible. I heard that, allright. It is Shri Mataji's opening declaration in many a public program. But when I fell into the temptation of bending it for gaining brownie points in the haste to gain ascent, all the so-called profit from bending the truth was neutralized. But to see that in humility wasn't possible unless the light of Kundalini started demonstrating it to me. I was asked to parter in a very important area of my life with a certain individual whose lower areas were subtly afflicted beyong repair. This subtle "catch" indicates the innate weakness of character. But going by the qualifications, I was willing to bend the truth, saying, allright lets start the partnership and the person will come around. That person started to dabble in politics and illegal affairs and ended up being ejected from the partnership. The enterprise ended there, four months into what was supposed to be a "until-death-do-us-part".

The Legacy:
The group susceptible to illegal, sinister, truth-bending, falsifying activities are those who act more on the basis of the left side. The left side problems, ascribed as most dangerous, are found amonsgt many countries, including India. In India, atleast before 2000, the media being poorly developed and communication being inaccessible, twisted individuals had a ball bending the truth, gaining milage out of spiced up data and all kinds of make-believe. That prevailed in all arenas... more importantly spiritualism. India is a land where there are true spiritual movements: Adi Shankaracharya, Islam, Vedic traditions, Vaishnavite, Shaivite, Devi etc. But people have had a nice time bending truths and glamorising events to an extent that if the originators would hear of their stories now they would be dumbfounded.

An example is, Guru Moses crossing the Void region for the collective attention. This is an event at the subtle level where the Kundalini takes the attention from the Nabhi to Anahata plexus. Without that knowledge, the movie "The Ten Commandments" looks like a metaphor for nothing. The parting of the sea is a metaphor for something that did occur at the subtle level. The burning bush, the promised land: External drama following the truthful occurances in the subtle system of the collective unconcious.

Back to bending the truth:
There is an inherent danger. A grave danger. If you exaggerate, falsify, glamorize in order to gain a member to your community... you will attract low level people of that exact sort into your community. That community can be a center for research in public health, a collective of investors or a community of followers of The Godhead. Sooner or later, these product of bent truth will exhaust their own resources and come out concieted and angry. Their reaction and self-deception will exhume themselves and possibly those who lead them into that deception. I am quite sure that this post in my blog today will possibly never be read, as I am warning those whom I cannot speak to directly. Their own challenges have clouded their experience and they stand out, threatening to blow the show for worse.

Twam Satyam Sakshat.